i had the BEST WEEKEND!!!!!!!! but after i got back, i wish i would have stayed here. but i will explain later about that later.

ok so i went to the Women Leadership Conference in Platteville and it was SO much fun!!!!!!! i loved it! i learned so much about myself and other people that i had so much fun! i got to go to the Drag Show they put on, and it was professionals like, they had been in Vegas and in Hollywood and stuff. so it was SO good! and like i went to all these different workshops, Grassroots Organizing for Women in Colleges, Living in a Bi-sexual World, Queer 699, Time Management, and Reclaiming Our Spaces, and Becoming an Homosexual Ally, and Becoming a Disabled student Ally. it was so fun!!!
i have a new word. Queer. i have queer politics. i got schooled in some new lingo. to most people, queer means that you are a homosexual. but guess what? a straight person can have queer politics. and i am one of those. because to be queer, is you want to fuck shit up. you want to change things and you are going to try your damndest to do so. so guess what? i can be considered a queer, so next time you use that word, think about it for a minute. how is that some food for thought?

speaking of food.......
amanda and stephanie and i are going to go and eat and so i will finish this later!!!!

WARNING!
for those of you who dont like swear words, be warned!!!!!!
alright, so i am going to this Womens Leadership Conference this coming weekend, .. TODAY`! and it is becoming so damned stressful!!!!! ok ,so we go down to platteville, we give our presentation, we listen to more presentations, then we come back,
BIG DEAL!!! there should be no reason for this trip to become this damn stressful! i feel like i want to run screaming out in to the snow and scream at the top of my lungs!!!!! no trip should be this stressful.
i drive,
i don't drive,
i drive,
i don't drive,
so now i am NOT driving and that is fine, but my mom is on her way up here to give me the van, and it so stressful that i dont know what to do abotut it!

GGGGRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
barb is mad! srping is supposed to be here, is it?
NO!!!
it is snow/slushing here! it is such crap! i hate it so much.
mother nature has one sick twisted sence of humor to do this to us!!!!
i was just getting used to having nice weather and sandals and shants, but now... NO!


ok, music time!!!!! for those of you who know me, i like System of a Down , and so go and get thier new cd, also iits BESTEST song is Boom! it is really good! and also on the r and b section, I Know I Can by Nas, and it is AMAZING! listen to the lyrics and it is just so moving!

I know i can, be what i want to be,
if i work hard at it, i'll be where i want to be.

just a little exerpt from it, but the rest of the song is really good.
i am going to go eat lunch with my joe and bethany! they are getting married and they are SO cute together.

ok, so i am not really big into American Idol, but i was flipping around and i came to it. So i watched some of it, and it was right at the part where the final 10 were singing God Bless The USA, and i just got SO many goose bumps! it was good, but weird at the same time.. ya know?

VIS IS MY HERO!!!!!!!!!
he came and fixed my computer for me! he is such a nice guy!
so the super computer is up and going again!!!!
i love the computer, it is the bestest! wanna know why? go look at a prior blog, i dont rememeber which one it would be

i have been having the BEST day!!!!! i woke up, thanks to my alarm clock -my mom-, and then i went to class and we got out of Econ early, and then i had a good lunch with amanda dna steph and adam. and then i wenet to my philosophy class and we got back our tests.. and get this.. i got a A!!!!!!! yep that is right, barb lind got an A on a test!!! i love philosophy!!!!!
and later tonight i have senate meeting, and then a senate activity, and its gonna be SO MUCH FUN!

GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
jim made my computer all nice and cool and now i can't get the monitor to work!!!!!!
i am mad, and i called FredNet to see if they could help, and they said that is proolly something with my tower.. WWAAAAAAAA (tear)

Today is FRIDAY!!!!!!
so i am just gonna run through my week. it wasn't the best, but it was good none the less.

So friday i came home and went to a party with some friends, it was fun!

saturday ... i don't remember what i did on saturday. i don't think i did much

sunday i went to church with the family ,..the WHOLE family, .. almost, we were missing one fiance, so it was still cool. and then after we went out for lunch. it was good, minus the fact that both of the bros were pickin on me a bunch.

monday , i washed clothes and sorted clothes and basically started cleaning the basement..because it NEEDS it. so that was monday and i went to lunch with my dad,. he took my out and it was good. i got a really good BLT.

tuesday.... i dont think i did much on tuesday. ... if i did, i can't remember it. i got my computer on tuesday, that is what i did

wednesday i got a call just as i was getting out of the shower and it was my buddy Dean, he wanted to know if i could sub for him for RKK on wed, thur, and fri . i was STOKED! that means i have something to do and i get some money to !
so i went to work on wednesday afternoon. then after that i went to dinner with my buddies at Perkins. it was CRAZY! there was like, 14 of us when we thought it would have been 8 ! it was so fun, i got to see a BUNCh of people that graduated with me, there was a couple guys that went from Yuppie to hippie. it was so cool, because one of them looked good as a yuppie and now looks even BETTER as a hippie! he was yummmy! and after dinner a few of us went to Liz's and hung out, that is where i learned that the war was on. liz, andrew, and i were very sad. it was a sombering occasion for all of us.

thursday i went to an 'interview' , basically i was just talking to a guy who works in the Human Resouurces depatment and that was really cool and fun. we talkied for like over an hour and it was really cool! then i came home and took a nap and then i went t work i went to work and then came home and played Roller Coaster Tycoon FOREVER!!!!!!! it is a horribly addicting game but it is SO fun!!!!!

and today is friday. i had originally planned on going to school with my mom since she is a teacher and her kids are ADORABLE , horrible, but still adorable. but i woke up and i decided not to since i had a BUNCH of stuff that i needed to take care of since i am going back to RF on sunday. and now i am at work. i know , its hard,.. i get paid to sit with kids on the computer! it is a horrible horriblly hard job!!!!
side note - that is sarcasm in the last sentence , if you can;t tell.

so i am going now
laterall

I was flipping through the channels about 5 mins ago and i saw the 3 Doors Down video for 'Love Me When I'm Gone" and by the time it was finished, i had crumbled. i was sitting on my kitchen floor, crying. i am not anti america. i love my country, but i don't think we need this war. it will affect everylast one of us.

To those people i know in the service, my heart and prayers go with you. Come back to us.

no good will come of this war. we go in and kill civilians, get killed, and maybe, just ,maybe take out Sadam. send in some navy SEALS to go undercover to take care of Sadam. and some people to make sure that their are no rebellions, but we don't need to go full out into this.

The lives of many have forever been altered by the decisions of a few.

March 19th,
War with Iraq has been declared.

ok, so this is along the lines of randomness... but i really want a taco still.
i wanted a taco when i began this, and that was like 2 weeks ago and i still REALLY want a taco!

my computer is the shit!
why might you ask?
the answer plain and simple,
my brothers.
ok, so here is the breakdown as of why,
joe put it together for me in the beginning.
then he upgraded my software and put a big ole hole in my tower , covered it with plexiglass, and then added a red neon light.
jim, upgraded from there.
then he gave me back my motherboard and added.... Roller Coaster Tycoon.
my computer is 'the shit'

the only draw back, RCT is a horribly addicting game, and it will be to big of a temptation for me!!!! but its all good! i love my bros! and they are computer GENIUSES so that is always good to.

plus it is Spring break right now, and all is going well!!!! nothing to do, no homework, none of that pesky deadlines....

oh, a side note - for those of you who don't already know, I have changed my major!!!
first it was Broad Area Social Sciences with an emphasis in Philosophy, and as much as i LOVE philosophy, i needed something different. so i changed it....
Broad Area Bussiness Administration with an emphasis in Management .

well what am i going to do with it ?
HUMAN RESOUCE MANAGEMENT!!!! wheeeeeeee! i am not being sarcastic in case you wanted to know. i am really excited about it! because that is what i think i really watn to do with my life,

so if you cant tell, barb was being bitchy lasst night. she is sorry to anyone she might have offended or made mad at her. but she is in a much better mood now. spring break has begun, and the weather outside is BEAUTIFUL so everything is going to plan. there is only a very few things that could make her day go anybetter. and she isn't telling me, so i cant tell you!!!

ok, so that was just my split personality coming out, she is gone now, and so barb is back! :-p
i am going to a party tonight with the bro's, it is gonna be really fun! i called sober cab so that means i need to go and buy some pop to drink and to find some games to play to, i am really excited, i get to go and see Brett and Cori too! and tugger! their puppy is SO cute!

thursday....
good day. didn't have classes. Econ was cancelled because of the teachers emergency apendicamy, (see previous entry) and then philosophy was cancelled because Moosa didn't have the tests corrected yet, and he didn't want to go into Locke, because it would have been like almost 2 weeks until we discussed it again, and so he said that we weren't gonna have class, and he was going to be gone, so it is all good in the class front!!!! i think it will be interesting to see who shows up at classes tomorrow. everyone is leaving to either go home or somewhere fun. i am going home. it should be interesting, i just hope that i don't lose my sleep habits,
i wish i had straight hair. ska music is good. buy the Wheatus cd. talk to me. i just hit my funny bone on the desk and it hurts!!!!!! there will be no RA position for barb next year. so that means that she might be living off campus. she is in pain and likes to refer to herself in the third person. i want someone to feel sorry for me. i wish i had a man to comfort me. i wish i had someone to snuggle with. i don't need anyone to feel bad for me, i am doing a damn good job by myself. wallowing in self pity, something i am very good at. i kinda wish i could just throw a little tantrum and get it over with. but no, i have to be adult about it... bleck, i hate being a grownup!

so i think i like this plain template better than the other one. it gives me more room.
its wednesday.... and ya know what that means.... BIG BROTHER BIG SISTER DAY!!!! i am a big sister for those of you who don't know. its fun, today we are taking the kids on tours of the campus, it should be fun!

ok so how is it that the wax in people ears come about? is there something in the ear that makes it? or is kinda like the formation of boogers, where its the dust and stuff that your ear catches instead of your nose? can anyone tell me the answer to that...? so yesterday i went to my econ class and my econ professors wife was there (she teaches her too) and she told us that he went in last night for an emergency apendecimy, so i feel bad for him, i hope he gets better soon, he is a cool teacher and his wife is awesome too, she is my advisor, and get this, ROBIN WILLIAMS (yea, the famous actor one) is realterd to them! i guess his wife is her first cousin, it was cool because i went into office and there are a bunch of family pictures and randomlly there are pictures of Robin, it is SO COOL!
so my day.. has been pretty boring up until now, and i don't think it will get much better, atleast up until 3ish when the kids come here,

so that i all from me for now, i think i have another story, but i don't remeber what it is now.

i need to find a job

alrighty, so this is how my day has been going.
first i wake up so i can go to breakfast with my girls, it is going well, and then i get done eating and i am still thirsty so i go and fill up my little juice cup with water. bad idea so i get the water and what do i do? i spill it ALL OVER myself. it was horible! it looked like i had peed my pants! i was so mortified! BUT luckily i was wearing my super khakis so it was all good. the water dried in a matter of like 4 minutes and i was able to go to class , mostly unembarassed. what are my super khakis you ask yourself? well they are a pair of khaki pants that i found on sale for 5 bucks a while back, and i LOVE them! i could wear these pants for like a month and there would be NOTHING on them! they are amazing! have you even seen the one commercial when the guy goes all over the place for his bachelor party and comes back home and his khakis are perfectly fine, yea, well those would be mine! they are amazing!

alright, so the old guys who always sit in our student center are SO funny! they sit there and discuss everything, from the budget to like the oncoming war and what their kids are doing. they are so funny to watch because they get SO passionate and they start waving their hands around and yelling and then they eventually all get up and start around their chairs and yell at each other. they funniest thing about it is, they all feel the same way about the issues!!!!!! they yell about the fact that they all agree! it is so funny to watch!

so my parents are right now inthe Carribean , it is so not fair! i want to go with them, but they wouldn't let me! i was sad, but my mom told me that she would try to bring me back a ring for me! so i am excited about that. and spring break is almost here, so that means that i figure out where i am living next year. well i need to figure that out soon, atleast. as of right now i am working on typing and not looking at the keyboard, i think i am doing ok. some words are kinda confusing, but i am getting there and it is coming along really well all in all i think. i can type pretty fast when i look AT the keys, so now i am trying to type fast without looking at the keys.

i hope all is going well for all of you. hopefully i will have no more run-ins with water, but if i am wearing my super khakis i should have no problem!
later all!

No regrets, that's my motto. Well... that and everyone Wang Chung tonight.
best damn quote in the whole world!!!!!!!!!

so it is Monday today, the worst day of the week. it is all good. tomorrow is tuesday and that means that it is only 3 more days until Spring Break!!! yeah spring break! i get to go home and clean and wash clothes and clean the house, but i might get to go and visit some family over by Stevens Point in WI. i might go, but i think that if i get the chance i fully will because i haven't seen them in FOREVER. ok so i am sitting here dancing away because i took a 3 hour nap today and i am listening to those songs that just make you want to get up and go to a club. but that is so weird, for those of you who know me, the club scene is not who i am. so it is strange!! but for those of you who don't really know me, i am the artsy-fartsy type. im basically a dork, because i LOVE going to the Walker Art Museum and walking thru there.. give me a movie and dinner over a club anyday!

so there is this song that i am currently in love with. it is by Bone Thugz N Harmony, its called Ghetto Cowboy. i have Katie to blame for getting me into the song. it is good, the reason she likes it is because there are horses in the background. i like the way it flows.

ok so this is where the rant will end. but i will leave you on this final note.

" I'm not a superhero! I'm a Latter-Day Saint."
that is a quote from a random movie.
night all!

so it is sunday night right now, one of the busiest nights of my week! i am sitting here, talking to my future sister in law and baskically just bieng bored. i think i want to out together a website, but i am not sure how to go about that, i know that i have one from the UW system, but i just need to figure out how to make that work and i will be all good. i want to make a boat out of pudding cups. i think that would be fun! i am listening to the song Welcome to my World by Nerf Herder. good band, good song, just good in general.
i love my computer. it is so awesome! for those of you who don't know, my brother joe put a red neon light in it and it is so freakin awesome!!! so i am sitting here with the light on, just looking at it. it is so nice! thanks joe!

ahhh! such a good day! i woke up early and like went to breakfast with Stephanie, it was good! and then i went to classes and then i put together my nomination letter for Lexi becaue i nominated her for the Chancellors Award, and so i took care of that stuff and then i got to retake my test that i missed since i was sick as a dog! and that was all well and good, my prof didn't mind that much.

ahh my philosophy teacher.. he is so cool! he is from Pakistan and so he has that accent, (which i love!) and he went to school in Canada so he kinda has this half pakistany half french accent. he is so funny to listen to! he LOVES saying bloody hell, bloody and damn and scum. those are his FAVORITE words. we count some days to see how many times he says them. but yea so like my day has been going really well, and i bought some fake OJ for 87 cents so i am chuggin that like there is no tomorrow. it tastes good!

why are there stupid people on this earth? seriously, i think we need to put all the stupid people in a jet and just let them fly to the sun, kinda like on the Simpsons, ahh good times... Simpsons... now that is a high quality tv show!

ok i got a quote for you all, i found it while i was at my Gender Equality Council meeting, since i am on senate, i go to those meetings too. ok, but here goes

Never apologize
Never retreat
Never explain
Get things done and let them howl. - Nellie McClung

so yea .. its FRIDAY i love FRIDAYs , next FRIDAY will be my beginning of spring break.. it should be fun :-D i am not going anywhere, but i will be at home, so if you want to talk to me, or anything, that is where you can find me!
so this is the end of right now,
OH OH OH OH OH
there was a baby in the Senat office earlier today, he was SO cute! i got to hold him and he fell asleep against me! but then again, i do make a good pillow!

later all!

my roommate like things that are creamy and white.
I wonder what she could be talking about?!?!?!?

well, its fish, in case you wanted to know! i thought it was funny, but yea, i have a good random thing here and there.
my mommy loves me! we had a good convo about me and lack of boys. she said that i was wonderful! he he he he

later all

ok, so last night i was having a meh kinda day, mainly because i was still sick. but then i had to go grab dinner because i was hungry and so i went to Freddies, (mass produced grease food for those of you not at RF) and i got a bacon cheese burger, and on it was 2 peices of bacon!!! hence the good extra bacon days, just in case you wanted to know.

ok so last night as i couldn't sleep, i was looking at the List of Nominees for the Academy awards, and i saw that the ChubbChubbs were up for one! ok, so ChubbChubbs is like this little 5 min cartoon that was So funny! jenni and i saw it and it was really funny! last night i went and saw the apartment that i might be getting if i don't get my RA position.... half of me kinda hopes i don't get the position because it is a nice apartment, but getting the RA position would be really nice because then i would get free room and board... so it is a toss up. i should know about the RA position before Spring break....
spring break.. lots of people are going places.. Quinnalicioius is going to scotland to visit the boy Adam, some girls on my wing are going to Mexico, my friend Megan is going to Florida and so is the roommate, and where is barb going you ask?

NEWPORT!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO!! YEA!!!! ... oh wait, that is home! DAMNNIT! yea i am not going anywhere.
ok so as i sit here and ponder the great wonders of the world... i ask myself, why did the Spice Girls break up? there had it all going on, they were hot, they had a movie, they had good head bobbing songs.. so why , WHY , WHY!?!?!?
oh yea.. maybe because they sucked! well i can't say that, to admit it, i still have a song on my computer from them , so yea i perputulized the spice train, i am sorry. that is all i can say, i am sorry.

i still want a taco!!!
someone needs to bring me a taco!!!!!!

I AM SO MAD!!!
i had a great rant and rave and then i pushed a button and it dissappeared!!!
i am so mad right now! that totally goes against all the good extra bacon days!!!
damnation and damnation to hell!

So, since a bunch of people i know have these blog things, i have decided to become a lemming and make one for me too!
ok, so i guess i really don't have much to say as of right now.

well yes i do.
i hate being sick. i wish being sick was something cool like winning the lotto or something because then i could be all happy and jump around be like...
WOOHOOO! im sick! yea!!!!!

but its just not.

my brother (the Trollhunting spoon) asked Kristene (his girlfriend) to marry him. she said yes. they might be moving to SIAPAN!!!! it is a long story, but the basics is, Kristene might get a job teaching art there and jim will go with her. so that means just when i am gettting my othe bro Joe, back inthe state, the other is moving out of the HEMISPHERE!!! it is not fair i tell you!

yea so that is all from me for right now
i want a taco.