Today, Barb is feeling: good but starting to get bored.

so i have been back for just over two weeks, and Best Buy has kinda been giving me the run-around. so that sucks. and i have applied at Jo Ann Ect. so, i need to find a job!!!!!

so if anyone knows of a place around the Woodbury area that is hiring and isn't food service, just lemme know!

so the transition coming back from Scotland has been kinda strange.
i still miss all the things that i really liked and enjoyed in Scotland. but i am glad to be back home with the rents.
i think that i might have a place to live in the fall so that will be wicked cool!
umm yea.

BARB IS HOME!!!!!

yep, barb is home now.
(and has been since last friday)

the transition had been a bit weird, but i am getting used to it again.
she had the best time in the whole world and once she is done paying off this trip, she is going to start saving up to go back again!!

6 hours and counting.......
and i am on my way back to the states.

Today, Barb is feeling: tired.
we just got done with a two and a half hour deep clean. it was fun and it went by fast, but it was hard! lots of bending and reaching and climbing on countertops (that was fun!) so yea, well, i have three of my grades back,
Ethical Leadership - B
Human Resource Management - B
SCC - i got a C... a 79 and there is no way to challenge for that last point! GRRRR (serious issues had by ALL with that class and just so everyone knows, the average in the class was a 72, so i am above average.... but i wanteed a B!!!!! and i worked damn hard for it) alright, now that the venting is over, the last grade that i am waiting for is my Gothic Lit grade. it is very possible that i could get an A in the class and have my 3.0 that i was working for.... so yea, cross your fingers for me! i should find out tonight at out party.

ok i need to go and clean some more.... i leave tomoorow.....lots of tears lie in wait.
-b

Today, Barb is feeling: saddened but happy.

i know, how can that happen? to feel sad and happy all at the same time.
well very easily.
i am sad to leave Scotland which feels so much like my home.
but i am happy to go back to my other home!
i miss my mom and dad, and friends, and church, and just everything there, but i know i am going to miss scotland too! i am torn. i want to be happy to go home, but i just can't be. i want to be sad to leave, but i just can't be.

i know i am one screwed up chickie.
so yea, as of right now.. we have a 36 hours and counting before we have leaving for the states again.
i will be back, probably with tears streaming!!!

Today, Barb is feeling: sad, stressed, and i kinda want to cry.

so i am sad.
today is monday and i am sad because i am going to have to leave here soon.
soon equals like 4 days from now. we leave on friday morning.

so i am stressed.
today is monday and i am stressed becaues it is finals week.
i have three finals to take. two tests this week and a paper that was a take home that i need to finish.

so i kinda want to cry.
today is monday and i kinda want to cry because we are leaving in four days and i don't want to go home!!!!!!! as much as i miss all my friends and family, i want to stay here. i want to come back here and just live here and stay here and never ever leave. just make everyone come to see me. we had our Host Family Dinner last night. it is just a time to get everyone together and for some people to say goodbye. there were some people who stood up and said what having a host family ment to them, i almost burst into tears twice. i get to see me 'mom' tonight and then again on thursday for our going away dinner. i am going to cry alot then.

i need to get back to studying. later!